I'm friends with the person I thought I can hold a grudge with for years [it takes me l | o | n |g  to forgive and forget)...well guess that watching 20 Most Greatest Celebreality Fights changed my mind.

I think I'm gaining weight, ARGH! That blasted fugly kilt won't fit me when I have to wear it for the winter uniform, and I better grow a few inches for the pants to fit me (my uniform is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo retarded on me]. then again...my weight is like a yo-yo. I know I'm a fatass....

can't change that.

Currently Listening Jagged Little Pill By Alanis Morissette Head Over Feet see related

I think I've changed this year. I feel better about stuff, and starting life again. I met new friends and starting on a clean slate. I mean, my life isn't perfect and there are kinks that need to be worked out. But hey, life isn't meant to be perfect. We all live, do stuff we may or may not regret, and then die : that's life. And it's OK. I had thoughts that my life wasn't the fairy tale I wanted to live and I didn't need it to be  as I realized it. I'm young, and life is still being explored. Maybe I'll find someone, go to college, and all this shit I want to do. I don't need to be held down by limits. [it might be edited and crap later, maybe longer. i wrote this quick]

This blog is very short and such. But ranting at like 12 in the morning is something I rarely do.

guess life is something to cherish and think about.

Oh wow...

Currently Listening All We Know Is Falling By Paramore Pressure see related

silence speak volumes
andallthoseliesibelievedaboutfriendshiphasended
my back has been stabbed too many times
for me to speak to you again.

Spring break is going well. My boredom has been killed by dancing to Apache and the Macarena during play practice. It has also been killed by rp's with my friend who uses a cell phone to im(I still lack a cell). If it wasn't for this, I would've been dead. I have been listening to music like crazy and trying to realize that freshman year is almost over. Only a few more months till I'm fifteen, hopefully better than bittersweet fourteen. Too much crap has been going on for me to explain.

I just realized something.

I know who my real friends are. Call me hokey or something, but too much crap has been going on for me to not realize who my real friends are. I realized that hey are always going to be there for me, not matter what type of crap I go through. Even if I piss em off over things like missing cue in rehersals, they're are there for me. When I'm pissed off, when I cry. I love you guys.

(note to heknowwhoheis-my fourteenth year has been bittersweet with all the crap that has been going on with me and you think i would have the audacity to forgive you?  you made my ex girlfriend cheat one, luring away from me and making me cry, not caring about my emotions...you treat me like crap. I forgave you once for that shit. And now this, your parents most likely think different of me and I almost got  in trouble because I just wanted you to stop annoying me. And stop stalking my ex because she's getting pissed too. My ex told you to stop calling my house and you ignored her. Silence is a virtue, learn it from me. Forgive, I shall. Forget....fuck no.)