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silence speak volumes
andallthoseliesibelievedaboutfriendshiphasended
my back has been stabbed too many times
for me to speak to you again.

Spring break is going well. My boredom has been killed by dancing to Apache and the Macarena during play practice. It has also been killed by rp's with my friend who uses a cell phone to im(I still lack a cell). If it wasn't for this, I would've been dead. I have been listening to music like crazy and trying to realize that freshman year is almost over. Only a few more months till I'm fifteen, hopefully better than bittersweet fourteen. Too much crap has been going on for me to explain.

I just realized something.

I know who my real friends are. Call me hokey or something, but too much crap has been going on for me to not realize who my real friends are. I realized that hey are always going to be there for me, not matter what type of crap I go through. Even if I piss em off over things like missing cue in rehersals, they're are there for me. When I'm pissed off, when I cry. I love you guys.

(note to heknowwhoheis-my fourteenth year has been bittersweet with all the crap that has been going on with me and you think i would have the audacity to forgive you?  you made my ex girlfriend cheat one, luring away from me and making me cry, not caring about my emotions...you treat me like crap. I forgave you once for that shit. And now this, your parents most likely think different of me and I almost got  in trouble because I just wanted you to stop annoying me. And stop stalking my ex because she's getting pissed too. My ex told you to stop calling my house and you ignored her. Silence is a virtue, learn it from me. Forgive, I shall. Forget....fuck no.)